Had the saddest training today... ... I think this is the first time I feel so sad and tkd training. I think many people saw , that I was trying hard to lose weight ( hope i am not making a fool of myself)... All their concern triggers my saddness... Thank for your concerns... I don't mind really... At least it shows that tkd ppl do care a little about me... ... I think i have very low EQ, my face changed ( when people start talkign about IVP) and people start telling me, don be sad, still got nationals, cheer up lah... Don be like that... A BIG THANK YOU hug to everyone... There is this 'special' person, only tell me that very wasted that I am unable to take part in IVP... Never console me or anything... After training, there is this person ask me to stop lying to myself... Want to cry, just cry it out... Really almost cried... 2nd time le... Almost cried in front of the person for 2 times... I want to be a strong girl... I am fine le... Only IVP, glad that I never hold belt, glad that I tried to go to light weight... ... enough le... Need to concentrate on my studies... Don't wanna fail any modules... I will continue to train for tkd... Can be for health purpose also... I don't need attention now, will stop complaining that I am unable to take part in IVP... I think I am overdoing it... ... IVP has past... Live as usually, homework also piling up as usual...
For the below blog, people might feel blur and don't know what I am talking about, but nvm.... haha.....
I deceided to shut you off my mind... I am going to let saddness go... You lie to me, U are so bad, u said things will not changed but... .... I would be strong, I have other friends around me... ... Hope u succeed in things u do... May be there would be a day we start being real friends again...
Hap | 2/21/2005 11:32:00 PM
