Had been spending 20 years of Valentine's day without a partner.

Looking back at my 20 years, I think I am someone who cannot differentiate admire and love. I just to tell my friends that my ideal prince must be taller than me, good looking, smarter than me, cares alot for me and must always be there for me. But issit this the bacis requirement for a prince??? I think this kind of people can only be admired and kept a distance away. He is too prefect, I wanted him to be so perfect that I think I cannot accept the smallest flaw in him.

I am not perfect. I know... I know I am not perfect , in fact I am full of faults.... My looks, my appearence, my IQ , my attitude , my everything....

There are a few princes that entered my live. I clearly rememeber one prince that I still cannot forget.... I don't know my limit hoping his cinderalla, when the prince appear..... Instead of treasuring our friendship, I become a witch. Despite the chances that the prince gave me, I did not treasure it and a spell was casted to make us apart leaving only memories I had before I become a witch ... The memories that we had as friends....

Looking at his photos would make me sad, thinking about what happen before I become a witch would be able to upset me the whole day.

I think I am just making things look serious. Trying to forget him, almost deleted his number during New Year, but held back when he replied to ask me who am I... Hope to see him again, but I don't have the face to talk to him again.

I remember that my friend once told me, most of the poly students have love experiences. The is only two possibilities that a poly student had never been in relationship before: the person choose not to start a relation ; the person had a very bad personality. I am sure I belonged to the latter group. Always wanted to change, but had never put them into actions before.

I really hope that Valentine's day would be over soon, hope no one ask how my I going to spend tomorrow night. Luckly, I have my CCA, going to spend with my CCA friends. Still not too bad...