Finally I spent three years in NP. Everything is coming to an end. Start saying 'my last this in NP" , "My last that in NP". Two weeks ago was my last studying week in NP, had my last day of school , my last last test, last after school dinner with my classmates. Last week was my last study break, and today is my last day to stay in school an study with my friends. And finally tomorrow is my last day of exam.

Thinking about 3 years ago when I first enter NP, I feared to be a girl whom is disliked by the class, feared that I would not have any friends. I can still remember clearly,the first classmate that I know was Ming Yan through the FOC camp ( Captain Planet), next was Cindy, Simon and Gavian through LSCT camp ( ferrea). Remember that before the first day of school I was calling Natasha, a girl whom I got her number during safety talk but i had long forgotten her looks, to meet at the bus stop.

On the first day of school in 2002, half of 1F09 people were late for out first practical lesson. Haha... we meet each other at the bus-stop, seeing unfamiliar faces around yet we were talking to each other because we were from 1F09!!! Haha... We could not find our lab because the day was at the other side. End up, interruping a yr 2 class to find our lab and a year 2 person said " Wa... these year ones all 30 minutes late..."

My class was the most untied class for the first sem, we celebrated birthdays together, hehe including mine, have class t-shirt and class outings. Although there were misunderstandings but I still love 1F09...

Year 2 was the time that we really formed cliques, and got closer. Remember the times when we got split up into 2 classes, I really cherish the lunch and lectures time together...Finally Attachment came...

We were sad that we got split into different cohort and some of them when overseas... We were very chatty when we get back to school again... hugging, talking and hanging out together and also receiving chocolates from people who went overseas attachment...

Finally year three, we were all busy with our projects and stuff and finaaly the end of everything...

I still love 1F09... you people changed me... From a shy girl into a more cheerful and daring girl. From a person who is not used to hugs and do not care to make things for friends to a person who hug people and start making small gifts for my friends...

Foever Friends is easy to say... But we all know that is is hard to carry it out... I believe that the memories is the only thing that never change... Therefore I don hope that we would be forever friends, I hope that we would remember each other forever. It is okie if u don call me when u see me in the street, but remember me that I was once your classmates. Although I made afew new classmates throughout my years in NP, but 1F09 still the best.

I shall stop here or I will start crying... Last thing, thank you everyone for toleranting my bad behaviour and unbearable temper at times... Love everyone including the carebears, 1F09 would not be a whole withour u guys...

-Tears about to fall-

Hap | 3/28/2005 11:41:00 PM

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Sunday, March 20, 2005

Never blog for a few days le... Basically I am busy with my school work.... Skipped NPtkd training just to study proteomic, the paper was okie lah... So it pays off...

18 Mar

My last day of school in NP... Hehe did not feel sad at all, had lots of fun adn too a lots of pictures... Hehe smiled a lot ... The only time I was sian is when we are deciding where to go for dinner... Finally had our dinner at crystal Jade and continue with our photo taking... Reached home at 12 am ++... -Tired-

19 Mar

Went out with my aunt and mum to source for my DnD dress... Finally manage to find one and I am happy with it... today is the first day I take a tkd class.... I was nervour and blur... lucklly got Kenny there to help me... guess I should take class few more times and get use to it... and I am sleepy now....

My Clique

Lionel ( My secondary class mates) and Me

Part of 1F09

Parts of the NPTKD ppl

8 people outside crystal Jade

Hap | 3/20/2005 01:07:00 AM

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Monday, March 14, 2005

Had a very unluckly day before tkd...

Did my practical test, OMG first time can know immediately that I will not do well for the test, for both theory and practical. And I lost my mp3 player super super sad... Cried at home before going for tkd lesson... sobz..

Went for tkd training, the warm up is tough sia... My thigh still hurts from last thursday + last saturday's training... But I like the shag feeling... then One of the exercise is 2 person need to jump sideway then clap our plams at the 3 step... Terence is my partner, then he say I am slow... He got longer legs than mine... He is taking bigger steps and jumping higher than me loh... After that taught Terence and O-jang people their pattern... Had fun teaching them... Taught them to shout at the wrong step. Sorry people... Hehe .. they are nice people and never blame me...

Hia... actually made up my mind not to go for thursday's tkd training, but they are having sparring session... erm.. see how first, may be I might go... hehe... Got to rest now... and pia LSSS tml....

Hap | 3/14/2005 11:41:00 PM

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Friday, March 11, 2005

My legs are aching... When I walk, go up and down the stairs... Hiaz... Met my IVP oppenent in NP today... Wa.. She is ex- national player... OMG... she is pro sia... She is so kind, asked me the be confident of myself and prised me alittle while telling me my weak points... Silly me took photo with her in the library...

Another happy thing that happen today is, I handed in my Final draft... Finally after many weeks of editing it is over le... -Relieved-

Hap | 3/11/2005 09:26:00 PM

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Thursday, March 10, 2005

Went shopping with my mum today, bought a white shirt, some facial foam and had a heavy dinner... I was very happy...

Went to school to meet Bee Siang, slacked there then go tkd training... Wa.. today's training was super tough... My legs are weak... But enjoyed training...

Start feeling sad when I went home...

Start thinking that maybe only me will miss tkd and not the tkd people missing me... feel sad when I start realising how insignificant I was...

I was thinking, would I cry when it is finally the last day that I would be in NP??? Would I cry on the last tkd training???

Would I cry on the last training when Bee Siang and me are going separate way, although we only know for a few months???

Would I cry when taking graduation photos, cos it is the last time my friends and I would be in NP together...

Would I cry on the last day of Exam??? Am I a cry baby??? I am overwhelmed with saddness...

All I can do now is to cherish the time I have with you guys... but I don't dare to... I am scared that u guys would give me a alot of happiness that I would miss alot next time... It is easy to say friends forever... But how many friends can really do that???

Hap | 3/10/2005 10:18:00 PM

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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

My club have tkd training today, but blur me never listen properly to what my sir said, told the class the wrong things therefore ended up only 4 student came for training today... Sorry Sir...

The semster is ending... I was talking to a friend today, now that I am still in school I really hope to get over with everything asap. But if I am thinking as a person who is on the verge to graduate, I feel like studying again... So contradicting... I think I feel like going back to study is because I am escaping from the working life... I don't want to be an adult... I want to be like a student who is under my parents care, and school's protection... Once I start working, need to think of money, need to save for this and that... hia.... to me working = no life....

Hap | 3/09/2005 11:16:00 PM

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

Finally ended all my IS modules, ALL completed all the IS modules I am required to take in my 3 years poly life... Saw 'him' today, the feeling is different, shall not talk to him any more I guess... Anyway , I am leaving poly soon and we will going seperate ways sooner or later... Don't want to lost any poly friends, but if this is the ending of our friendship there is nothing I can do ...

Saw this from Candy's blog... find it quite meanful... how I was I could cry infront of 'him' .... Would things be different??? Really hope that the person who would make me cry appears ....

When a girl cries in front of a guy...

If a gal cries in front of u, it means tad she couldnt take it anymore. If u take her hand, she would stay with u 4 the rest of your life; If u let her go, she wouldnt go back 2 being herself anymore. A gal wont cry easily, except in front of the person whom she loves the most, she becomes weak. A gal wont cry easily, only wen she loves u the most, she put down her ego. Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u, please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with u 4 the rest of ur life.

Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u, please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of ur decision, u ruin her life.

When she cries rite infrnt of u, When she cries bcoz of u, Look into her eyes,Can u see n feel the pain and hurt she's feelin?

Think.

Which other girl cried wif pure sincerity, Infront of u, And bcoz of u?

She cry not because she is weak, She cry not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity, She cry, Because cryin silently is no longer possible, the pain,hurt,n agony has become 2 big a burden 2 b kept inside.

Guys, Think about it, If a gal cries her heart out 2 u, And all because of u, Its time 2 look back on wat u hav done, Only u will know the answer 2 it.

Do consider it, Coz one day, It may b 2 late 4 regrets, It may b 2 late 2 say "i'm sorry".

Hap | 3/08/2005 08:24:00 PM

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Monday, March 07, 2005

Hia stayed at home the whole Sunday... Worked on my FYP 3rd draft, rest and 3rd draft again... SIanation......

Hap | 3/07/2005 02:32:00 AM

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Saturday, March 05, 2005

Just bath.... Smell so so so so nice... Haha...

Went for the career fair this morning.... Actually is not morning lah it was like ard 12:30pm like that... Hia regret for not studying hard and hate myself for not knowing what I really want... Met a few friends...Hang around at Suntec for like 5-6 hours... had my FYP discussion there with my partner too... Took 106 home... the trip super long ... like around 75 mins...

Reached home, watched TV then go tkd training... They are learning pattern today, taught them pattern... Went dinner with some tkd mates... But we are like not so bonded so nothing much to chat... Hia... Should mingle with them more...

Hap | 3/05/2005 11:59:00 PM

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Feel like eating Braised egg lately... Haha... I know who I am ask for.. jking nia...

Blog this because I am sian... very sian.... Becoming crazy...

Hap | 3/05/2005 12:25:00 AM

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Friday, March 04, 2005

3 March 2005

Had my HT Term paper presentation. Dr Forday did asked us some questions but we were not given enough to answer any of his questions. Met my supervisor, I think I was abit harsh when I am explaining some things to him. Hope he is not unhappy with me. When for TKD training, haha... more black belts than colour belts. Practice patterns and kicks. Thinking of going 2nd Dan, but is either I go modular or one time grading. Modular : 3 gradings, $ 50 each time only need to wait for 6 months than can go le... One time grading: $100 but need to wait for 18 months... Don't know should I go anot... And also embroid my name on my belt anot. $ 25 for all length... But I just spent $100++ on my gi... Expensive leh... Should have went grading last july, then my friends can pay for all this as birthday present...

4 March 2005

No school today, Stayed at home but no slacking... Got to do my final report, so engrossed that I never reply my friends when they chat with me in MSN or sms me.. Sorry friends... Went back to school for tkd, Waited for 45 mins++ before everythign start... Hia.. I am the only BB that blocked the wrong way and don't know 2nd Dan pattern all the other 5 BB knows them... As someone is driving, I left alone... Glad that I went back to correct my mistakesss. Hope I will rember them and not make them again...

Had been thinking if I were given a chance to study overseas, what would I do??? I believe I would sort of running away from it... I don't know why, i should appreciate it. But I believe my life would change if I go overseas. I don't want to lose the friends I have now!!! I don't know should I go??? Going there alone means I have to be independent. I don't know if I could take that.

Uploaded some IVP photos...

Bee Siang and Me

Group Pic... But 'some' people went home le.. :-(

Gladwin ( my coach), mark ( on the right) and me

Hap | 3/04/2005 10:04:00 PM

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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Did my FYP today... Finally Last Experiment...

I was super pissed off by someone today. First u change the setting of the machine without informing us ( have to tell supervisor because we don't know what to do), then u keep the gels leaving only 6 out of 18 big gels for us, u took all the small gels also and now u used the machine that we had reserved and u still have the check to complain to supervisor. What is your problem???

I missed my lighter, the first lighter that I liked alot alot... Lent it to people and it is gone... Hia... Shall get a new one soon...

My HT presentation tml, hope everything goes well... got tkd tml... I wanna train.. Hope I will not get too lazy tml... hehe.. going to bed le..

Hap | 3/02/2005 11:29:00 PM

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Woke Up early , so here I am blogging.

28 March 2005

Went to school only for a 1 hour lecture. Reached school early to reserved a machine for my FYP. Had QME discussion after lecture. The tkd people ask \ed me if I wannt to join them for Sushi buffet dinner. I would like to but got discussion in the end could not make it to join them. I was sms-ing someone but the peron replied in a manner that I think I had made the person unhappy. Hia... Hope things are fine.

1 March 2005

Had my QME presentation, was not good though. Wanted to start my experiment for FYP , who knows my partner and me were a step late. Although we booked the machine , another group who was doing the same project as my group, used the machine instead. I was super super pissed off, that I showed her black face even though she apologised. This experiment was post-phone once because of her... AArrggg... So I did something bad... Hehe only Christine, Pearlyn , Gary and may be Wei Shan know... We must keep mum okie...

It is 1 March yesterday, which means I am left with 1 last month to study and might be leaving school bid studying for good. Felt a bit sad, I believe I would miss my friends be it my BIO classmates or my tkd friends... Was telling my cousin that I am leaving NP soon adn he replied " So u are only to leave NP and leave your 2 cousin in NP huh??" Ya , I am leaving NP. Although NP is near my house, but I guess it would just be a building which I had spent haapy times in. I believe I would miss NP, NP BIO ppl , NP tkd... Even though I did not enjoyd my 3 years in poly to the fullest, but I enjoyed my 3rd year alot alot, from the say I go attachment onwards, the enjoyable working experience; the time I joined NPtkd again, the new friends I made there; the back to school again feeling after attachment. The thought of leaving this kind of life I am having really made me sad... Well my aim of the aim, is to be cherful and to cherish the time I have studying in NP with my frineds.

Hap | 3/02/2005 06:09:00 AM

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