Hap's Post
Friday, August 05, 2005
Please do not do anything after u see the post...
I know I am so stupid, this is a public website, want to post is to let people see mah... I post because I wanna have some memories, wanna rememeber what happen today after a year...
I am fine, don't need to treat me like some kid who need people's attention. I don't want to be a irritating attention seeker. LEAVE ME alone!!! I will be fine, I am old enough to think and sort my thoughts...
The real me is a irriating, stuipd bitch!!! So just leave me alone... I deserve no care and concern... I deserve loneliness, put me in a crowded and 'happening' area and u will find me in my quiet spot... I don't need concern!!! Shoo... go away... I am a cold blooded animal with no feelings, i don't care how others think. Still care for me?? Know me longer and u will regret all the care and concern u have showed me...
Sometimes really think I am crazy, why choose to make myself so busy... Like today, had been think weather to go training anot, I should just go home and rest... But stupid me choose to make myself busy, go training ... Felt so sian about everything , everyone... I am a coward, i would choose to escape and hide forever...Nothing seems to be right for me, or I am the one who is not right..
I really wish that I can show people my weak side, most of the time I only know how to cry at home....I wanna run away from everything and everyone, but I cannot because part of me wanna go the other half wanna stay... I feel so miserable, for unknown reason... I believe I am forcing the people ard me to leave me... I deserve all that and LEAVE ME ALONE.... end of my crapping...
-Crying-
Hap | 8/05/2005 09:33:00 PM
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