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Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Stayed at home the whole day... I am not feeling well...
Stay at home to study and slack ... Felt abit feverish in the afternoon...
Chatted on the phone for awhile just now, so many things that I wanted to say, but I can't... There is nothing much I can say here too...
Hap | 10/31/2006 08:33:00 PM
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Monday, October 30, 2006
Had my exam today... I don't want to talk about it...
Went to Sakura@ Clementi with my parents today. Its my mum's birthday... Ate a lot of things, I was so full till I had skipped my dinner...
My brother went chalet @pasir ris, missed him... NO one to bully for two days...
I feel so lost now, I felt that I am struck... No one is there to help me, I am feeling loss... Alot of things in my mind but I am so unsure of everything... Lost my confident in everything... I am so scare that the history repeat itself... But there is no one to tok to... No one to provide me with the advice... Everytone is either I find it hard to tell them or they are just too busy for me...
Meeting a fwen this friday, hope that I can bring myself to say out everything... But still, I don't know if i should...
Hap | 10/30/2006 11:14:00 PM
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
Met up with Darling today...
We almost quarrel in the morning, but things was fine later...
Had dinner at Seoul garden with Juan Meng Sir.. I was very very full, darling is so nice today... Very gentleman and nice to me... Hehe... SO happy...
Shopped around in cwp, the remote control helicopters and planes are so nice... The teddy bears are so cute... I want them!!! After shopping, we when home... And Now...
I got to go back to my books le...
Hap | 10/29/2006 10:56:00 PM
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Had a long chat with my sister last night... The chat should be aroung 3-4hours continously... Chatted a lot and that girl is trying her best to change my mind. But I am really determine this time ( Hope that I did not make the wrong decision)...
Chat with my sister on everything, hope that we can always be like this...
Hap | 10/29/2006 09:54:00 AM
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Saturday, October 28, 2006
I had made a very very important decision in my life... I don know it is right or wrong... I was so upsad yesterday caused I felt that I had broke my parents heart by having that decision... I thought I seriourly need to talk to someone but I end up keeping very thing in my heart...
Went to tkd, wanted to do some kicking but no one to hold for me...
Talked to my mummy and dad this morning, I really loved them, they are so understanding and thoughtful to me... I LOVE THEM...
Hap | 10/28/2006 11:02:00 AM
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Friday, October 27, 2006
This is a record of my yesterday's life...
It was a blur day, this is how it goes... ... In the morning at around 8:45am, I went to NP (reached around 9am plus), I wanted to donated blood. But i only realized that the donation drive starts at 11am ( OMG, got to wait around 2 hours???). Luckily, Li Jiao msg me, so I went home to get my books then go SIM study....
Went to donate blood at 3pm, spent an hour from registering to donate blood . Continue to study, before I did something silly while going for out break. When I saw my secondary school mate (while going for break), I told her that he is someone from my sec sch and that LJ don't know him... ( I feel so silly about that, how could I forget LJ was my sec sch mate)... After break, continue to study till 8 plus...
Decided to give darling a surprise, wanted to go to his training ground. Ended up, I took the wrong bus and lost my way. I am so blur man (this is not the 1st time I am going to that training ground)... Luckily, darling picked called my after my many missed calls...
Got back to CWP, then meet Kelvin Sir there... We were in Burger King, and left for Bukit Timah after Burger King close... It was a long chat, for us, from 10pm plus to like 1:15am when I got home...
Honestly, I like to talk to Kelvin sir ( excluding training time) feel that I can learn many things about how to communicating with people, how to portrait myself and the ways handle things...
Hap | 10/27/2006 07:09:00 AM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Finally my leaves have arrived...
Went to work today, spent half the day assigning my job to others... Today is a unlucky day for me, had been bumping into a lot of things with my head, hand and shoulder. Hia...
Hap | 10/25/2006 10:00:00 PM
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I could not study a single bit... I am feeling terrible... I hate the things around me...
Hap | 10/24/2006 04:34:00 PM
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Have mood swing these two days... A lots of thing appear in my mind...
I feel so lost, yet I don wish to admit defeat. I wanted to be strong yet I can't... The thing I feared most is here, I don't know how to cope with it. I had to put up a strong front in front of my family. I must!!!
I am no longer tough as I thought I was... Exams coming, having chest pain on and off, still have to work plus this problem, I feel so loss. I admit that I have thoughts of ending my life but I cannot. I cannot let people who cared for me worried, I got to make up to my parents for the time that I have neglected them.
I am deeply injured, greatly hurt, it is so painful. It is so hurting to the extend that I cannot do anything, it is haunting me every now and then. I have loss my sense of humor, no more laughter can be seen on my face. No more smiles that come from my heart.
My wish for myself now is :
1) Aim to be a porcupine.
2) Study hard. I don't know how long would this take, but I have to give it a try.
Hap | 10/24/2006 02:25:00 PM
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Monday, October 23, 2006
Home alone!!!
So scary, luckily I have lappy.
Hap | 10/23/2006 10:09:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 18, 2006
BLOGGGGGGG... hia.. my mind seems so blank!!! like have nothing inside... Can remember what I had studied... Help ...
This morning reach workplace super early, around 7:10am. I was so sleepy there.
Finally lunch time, had my lunch alone follow by a short nap before I start to work again. Had my dinner in office , after which I went to sch. Attended class for 2 .5 hours before my darling come to pick me up. Honestly could not remember much what happen but I think is:
We chatted awhile before going to my place. and continue to chat at my place before he leave.
Hope he had left happily, cos i got no impression abt it....
Hap | 10/18/2006 12:46:00 AM
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Monday, October 09, 2006
I just got back from work... TIRED!!!
When to help out in tkd grading, quite boring. Cos I did not do much until last mintue teach a young kid his pa-jang. CMI lah, that boy don't know anything, sian loh... I was not the one who taught him along plus, his stance also CMI... ... Hai, hope he will pass. Even if he fail, don't saythat he was taught by me loh. Less than 10 minutes to teach a primary sch boy who is under stress his pattern??? I cannot loh...
After that, I did not stay back to help K-squad. When home to rest and studied abit. After which, went out for dinner with Kelvin Sir, Striker and my sister to Zhen fa... Chatted alittle. We planned to watched movie but somehow it changed to Party World.
I bit paisei, I think I had been hogging the mike (hehe...)... When straight to bed after i reached home at 1am++.
Hap | 10/09/2006 07:00:00 PM
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
I had a lonely mooncake festival... But luckly I have my family so it it still fine...
Work is fine . In school, I had my presentation yesterday, think it went off well...
Oh my god, it was so misty yesterday. Terrible. I had slight breathing difficulty and my throat are irritated. Luckly it is not the seventh month, if not everything would have been made worst.
Hap | 10/07/2006 06:29:00 AM
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Thursday, October 05, 2006
I am so sinful today... Haha...
My big big boss is giving everyone a treat. For the first time, I am going to SAKURA. Wow, had been knowing that there is a wide variety of food, but how delicious it is I don know. I am very greedy girl.
I ate three raw oyster, tried oyster for the first time. Yummy! The raw salmon there was nice too... I WANT TO GO BACK AGAIN!!! Sukara is also serve cooked food. Love all of them haha... Not only a heavy lunch. I had cakes at around 4pm it is my colleague's baby first month...
Fast and enjoyable day at work...
Hap | 10/05/2006 10:25:00 PM
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006
I was suppose to do my homework now, but as I had took off my contacts lenses. Without contant lens and glasses, I feel so blind.
Evrything was alright for the past few days.
Went to my brother's school today, his stupid classmates are too much. I cannot accept the way my brother is being bullied. Talked to his form teacher so hope things would be fine.Nothing much happen today.
His stupid classmates are too much, anyone who bullied my brother would pissed me off immediately including my sister. The is always a limit to playing, once u cross the limit it is bully.
I hate people who bully my brother more than those that bullied me. People who are reading my blog, better don bully my brother ( haha!!)
Had not been happy for the whold day as I felt that I am responsiblefor my brother's poor result. I had neglected him alot since I started working. I feel so guilty for not doing my part as a sister but sometimes i also feel that he don't appreciate me and I should just leave him alone. But in the end, I still cannot help to be nice to him. I just have to manage my time in a better way.
Hap | 10/04/2006 11:52:00 PM
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Monday, October 02, 2006
I back dated again... My mood of facing the first day of the week changed as I recall what happen yesterday... Yesterday was both good and bad day for me... ...
Went for breakfast with my sister, brother and Mr xx. After which I reached home at 12 plus, although I did slack in between but I really concentrate in doing my work when I am working on it. (It is the good part)
And soon the bad part came. Mr XX was with me all along, just as I was half way through my assignment Mr XX is leaving. Of course he did not leave happily. But I was really glad that my family was around and seeing him really cheered me up.
Went for dinner follow by movie (Rob-B-Hoob) with tkd fwens. Kelvin Sir sent us home after that.
Anyone can advice me on the scenario below:
Case 1) A girl (A) quarreled with her boyfriend. The boyfriend(B) had planned to go out with her but in the end it was cancelled. A had always suspected something is happening between B and C. On the same day B got a girl (C) to msg A , asking A out to meet their friends. A felt very disappointed, B used to get A to meg the fwens when they are arranging for a meet up, and now C is doing it. What does this mean ??? What should A do???
Case 2) (continue from above.) A questioned B for his reason of getting C to msg her. In the mid of their angry conversation, B admit that he is two -timing. What should A do???
Case 2) (continue from above.) When A, B and C with another person (D) are together. D was sitting between A and C. A walked over and sat beside C. ( What does this mean???). During that period of time, A walked away as she was not feeling well. B continue to stay with C and D. When B,C and D got to know that A is not feel well ( After A told them) , D accompanied A. B and C only came to take a look at A after awhile. (B still care for A???)
Anyone had comments for the above story??
Hap | 10/02/2006 05:21:00 AM
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Sunday, October 01, 2006
I am so stress as I am typing this. Stressed by homework and exams... ...
I did not study or do homework yesterday... Hia... Went to buy a phone yesterday, Nokia 6280...
At first I was very excited about it, but immediate calming down of my mood once I bought the phone. I would actually stop myself from touching my phone when it is charging. Usually I could not resist the temptation of new items...
After buying the phone, I spent the whole afternoon sleeping. Follow by tkd. The kids were cute... haha and they all loved the chocolate snacks that i made... So happy...
Went for dinner after tkd, I love my prata , ' Cheese, Egg, Mushroom prata' all in one... Yummy...
Hap | 10/01/2006 08:42:00 AM
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