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Hap's Post
Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Have mood swing these two days... A lots of thing appear in my mind...

I feel so lost, yet I don wish to admit defeat. I wanted to be strong yet I can't... The thing I feared most is here, I don't know how to cope with it. I had to put up a strong front in front of my family. I must!!!

I am no longer tough as I thought I was... Exams coming, having chest pain on and off, still have to work plus this problem, I feel so loss. I admit that I have thoughts of ending my life but I cannot. I cannot let people who cared for me worried, I got to make up to my parents for the time that I have neglected them.

I am deeply injured, greatly hurt, it is so painful. It is so hurting to the extend that I cannot do anything, it is haunting me every now and then. I have loss my sense of humor, no more laughter can be seen on my face. No more smiles that come from my heart.

My wish for myself now is :

1) Aim to be a porcupine.

2) Study hard.

I don't know how long would this take, but I have to give it a try.



Hap | 10/24/2006 02:25:00 PM

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