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Hap's Post
Thursday, September 13, 2007

Alot of things had been on my mind today, after talking to my sister I become even more troubled. I am so useless as a big sister, I am feel so bad. I feel so inferior, I hate growing up, can I don't grow up.

I have been a person who is always regreting, so I told myself to follow my heart thinking that I will never regret. In the end i was wrong, very wrong. i ended up regreting. Finding excuses allowing myself to make mistakes, again and again, years after years I am still doing that. I never learnt my mistakes.

Things changes as you grow, things are not as simple, easy and lucky. I am no longer like before and I had to face failure, lots and lots of failure. Worst of all, I am making others to pay for my failure. I don't want that, I don want. Can I answer everything myself? Will I be able to handle that? Facing everything alone seems so scary, so fearful.

What will my future be like, can I change now? Is it too late? I am ruining my future with my own hands? I am hurting my parents with my behaviour. I am digging a hole for myself.

Digging, digging and digging.


Hap | 9/13/2007 01:13:00 AM

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