Hap's Post
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
I am still sick...
Work the whole day plus an hour of OT. Went out for dinner with my family, after 'He' decided to ignore me. Obviously I was not in a good mood, ate and chat very little. However the topic which my family was saying made me think alot.
How to support a family when the husband and wife are earning very little. The total income of the family was only $2 300 without CPF deduction. They got to support the expenses of the only child (not even 1 years old) with that money.
It makes me think of my future, I am earning more than half of their total income but money does not seems to be enough for me. Will I be able to give my kids good life, or average type of lifestyle which I was brought up in? Would my pay be able to reach $2 300, instead of achiving 2K only when my spouse's pay is added in?
Would I be too broke to pay for my kid's expenses? Not able to give them things that they want? Unable to bring them overseas (may be not every year but every two year)? Do I want to get married and face all these problems?
Marriage still seems very far to me, I cannot foresee myself settling down. Rushing home just to prepare dinner, weekends burnt by doing housework are definently a NO to me.
Feeling insecure, no confindence in the relationship is also another factor. Help!!! Who can help me???
Darling , you got to take care of yourself. Although i don think that u would continue to read my blog after I stop blogging for so long. You got to be careful on the road. It hurts me when u simply lose your temper. may be its because u are tired, not in good mood or another. But I will still feel the pain when not treated nicely... I hope everything will be smooth for u, so that u can have good mood to treat me better...
Hap | 9/04/2007 08:32:00 AM
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